Your Dreams Are Your Limitations

 Highschool days,a bit good with computers and stuffs,he thought he would become an engineer,a tech geek who's life chair revolves around computer table.

It was much later that he developed interest in architecture too,may be because he was close to his own house warming.

Not a single conventional thought of becoming a doctor came to his mind.

Soon that 16 year old boy took computer science in the same school he studied for the past 3 years.Wanted to be an Architect,he said.

Although excelled in all subjects,he asked himself "what does architect do?" "Just building things?!" "Is that something meaningful?" "should i spend all my life building!" "In what should i invest my precious life?".

Very soon all these questions and search for meaning filtered out the desire to be an architect.It isn't my way,he said.

A teenage boy,deeply introverted,less talkative was flowing through thoughts and day dreams,of what ,what he should do with his life.

Finding himself so different from others,he started questioning himself "who am i?" "Why im the way i am".Self enquiry has begun.Slowly he was moving deeply into the secrets of his own very self.

He had no friends or everyone was his friends!He was not there to learn,but to unlearn.To unlearn all the rubbish that has been unconsciously injected within him.Of social,cultural,religious conditionings.He was there to know himself.Beautiful teachers were around me,for this flower to grow and blossom.They became the manure,for this little flower.Slowly the seed was sprouting.

Being good at arts he thought he could be a Designer.It will also make use of his technical skills.All the c++ he learned and all thoughts bombarded again seeking meaning and purpose in what he is doing.

"What will you do with this designer dream,sitting infront of computer and do stickers and posters for a harpic company!" Heart whispered.

Little designer in me just died on the spot just like the architect.

"What is that i really want to do with my life?" this question keeps coming to him.

"Who is the one ,who is thinking, what is that i really want to do with my life?" 

"Am i the whispering thoughts or this little body?"

Slowly he was moving deeply into the secrets of his own very self.Much self enquiry and introspection had happened in plus two times.

Languages were so close to my heart.So does language teachers..even every words of mine carry their fragrance.Without them being around me,i wouldn't have become Me!

How can flowers grow without sunlight?!

And a teacher,introverted,humble and loving was always there in the corner of the old library.Her presence felt like a mother.Much sunlight!

My friends,how can you grow without reverence to the sunlight,and the water through your roots.How can you grow without reverence to the filth that your roots are grounded into!

Some people could touch your heart.They don't need to speak for that.Their presence is enough.

Later,i decided to do a triple major in psychology,media and english.Sooner and later i had to drop that too.Every time i decided,i had to drop."What is that my heart is longing for?!" Asked myself.

Higher secondary years was the years of self enquiry,growth and evolution.

And the last day i went to this sunlight of mine who sits in the darker corner of an old library.Someone who gave me lot of opportunities to become who i am.

And she said "You're a good student of mine and i will always remember you" those words are still heard deeper in my heart.When i left,tears were just flowing down for no reason.

I always thought about that.

We used to say i will never forget you,right?

It is so beautiful of her to hear i will always remember you.That filled my heart.Fullfilled as student,i left.

Self enquiries weren't ended,sooner or later i found my way.I found something more significant than everything.Something more profound than anything.Something more wonderful.I found myself.

I have unlearned so much so that,nothing is left to learn!

My friends,Your dreams are your limitations.You can only dream with your limited mind.Dream of a limited mind is a limited dream,isn't it?

They say to have dreams! No.

First have an unlimited mind.Then dreams will happen by itself.If you dream with your little mind,it will be always limited.Have a dream that liberates you,and not limit you in any ways.

You will be so glad that your childhood dreams don't became true, isn't that true?

What were your dreams!

You want to become a super man with underwears on your pants!

You are so glad that it didn't come true.Why are you laughing at such dreams.Because it came out from a limited mind.

You watch an action movie and suddenly you want to become a soldier!

You watched a crime movie and suddenly you became a detective!

Are you aware whats going through you?

Your mind?

Are you aware of your thoughts or are they driving you unnecessarily?

Ask yourself.

Who are you really?

Are you this personality that you are?A bunch of thoughts,emotions,desires in a body? Or are you more than it?

You have to know yourself first.You have to know your strengths and weaknesses.You have to fight against your comfort zones.You have to fight against yourself.Then only you will grow.

Then only you will know yourself.

You have learned somany,but you don't know who you are!

Do you know the life that you are?

You have to unlearn.You have to unlearn all that you have learned to know the very secret of your existence.The purpose of your birth.

You are being driven by your limited mind.Limited dreams,thoughts,emotions and ambitions.

Only when you come out of it,the real purpose is revealed.

You don't have to have big dreams.Just work upon your self in being a better life.A life that benefits you and people around.Then beautiful ways will emerge out of it.You dont have to think and decide about it,it will happen by itself.Things will arrange itself for you.

Your first priority should be knowing yourself fully.Then only you will succeed as a life.

The architect,designer,teacher,doctor,police, everyone should die within you.Then only you will be reborn.Only then you will realize who you truly are!

Know yourself and a way will emerge

May peace and blessings be upon you.

- Raza Ahammed.N (BA.Psycology,Farook College)